PhoebeJ

Thank you for visiting my page! 

When I was a teen, I spent my free time writing stories and building worlds instead of socializing. The Emerald World was born when I combined three different stories together. Since then, I worked on it every second I had.

Art school and college showed me that the world was rapidly changing. My classes were out of date by the time I graduated. I became lost. I started to see my world and story, and potential career as two completely different things. I must have a stable job.

Then, a lot of health problems started to happen to me and I thought my world and story was gone. Years later, it just came rushing back to me and I started Project Emerald on this site.

Unfortunately, I could not get organized nor stay consistent. Even though I learned I can no longer work, my mind kept pushing my world and story away. It keeps telling me I need to make money. While, the money I bring in is not enough, my family believes I am doing my best. This barrier to my world and story was my own creation.

Lately, I have started to get extra help with my mental issues. I never knew, someone could help a mentally disabled person with things like consistency. I also learned more about my disorders. I always knew I was anxious and depressed to the point I needed medication, but I only joked about having ADHD. I learned ADHD was no joke. ADHD can make life more difficult, and actual help for this condition can be hard to find.

I am getting back up and trying again. Maybe it will be different this time, maybe not. Giving up is letting my illness win, and I do not want that. That said, I am trying this project again, not a do over, I am continuing, and if Regalis and The Emerald World evolve, with new ideas and feedback, I will still continue forward. Even if it takes me some time to get back up.

Thank you so much for reading! This was not easy to write, but if I want to make a community, I'm going to be honest. Thank you.